Suffering takes reality at its action and words only spin out if the pain boils over. A dilettante with nothing lost, much gained, can only pretend to adventure, desperation, and journeys. Is that what it's been? Has nothing happened? Am I breathing air that ought to be reserved for the overcomers, the daily runners, the affixed to hardened masts? It may be that the sunrise outside this comfortable window enjoyed from a comfortable bed is a reflection of an unearned living whose shine rubs off at the behest of a hand that's of the world.