Anxiety Germination

One sip too many 
Coffee spills my beans
Broken and scattered beginning

Thank you, that's morning
I see there's no putting back together
Phrases that I've overused

Too many book assurances
(and their contradictions)
Have wiped my mind
And replaced me with a machine
An algorithmic monstrosity

I can only walk it off
Shut ears
Squiggle mouth
And a nose for the breeze

Cultivate this growth
I carry an anxious bonsai 
Careful, it's precious
Don't let it grow large