give up or sideways

if it's too bad to believe in 
i can't get faith 
thus the savior 
is gliding away 

without conviction 
what is guilt 
and not knowing 
stops the follow 
taken path to misery 

make me lost 
play don't keep 
to slide aside
is where one ought 
but when to go 
how to sought 

carry tense 
from all that learned 
habit fence 
holds the burns 

and yet there's hope 
clawing in 
to slam the door 
or give in