Departing

I crawled across the gravel floor 
Herky jerky where's the door 
Barely able headed mind 
Exit quick or never find 

Beacon weak in distance mist 
Anxious future flustered fist 
Metaultimate mistake 
Final string will soonish break 

Artful past was privvy throne 
Chewed that craft beyond the bone 
Once it was the group was me 
Now my hands are all I see 

May it be this room my home 
Graveyard resting obit tome 
Read to ending no escape 
Snipped my shredded length of tape 

Still I sputter cluttered thoughts 
Admitting every utter naught 
Fate and souls I can't believe 
Even as I soon must leave