High Pitched Acceptance

When I want to be real
I find myself being more polite
than I mean to be
showing my teeth
and accelerating my gratitude
an automaton that in trying not to be rude
becomes the picture of ignorant indifference
and that's not how I wanted to treat you
but this impulse runs deeper than what I know 
how to change
and therefore
thank you
you have been very kind
and I'm sorry
that I seem so fake.