i met you fifteen years ago sitting between two twin beds when i asked, what do you mean? and you answered that you are not to be trifled with, you of unusual length containing the valence of every party that i could have imagined that day while also saying i am above this, a fray calmer than the raining night kept warm by a comforter set out and bright blue along side a group that had a lot to see after reading even more vigorously defending the notion that things might be more than they seem to be, tales and games and the crackle of unspo ken measures of the way things were and i remember that word